I can't cope with that..god please forgive me!

Dear God,

Please give me the strength to do this,

please help me to pass through this and manage it.

I want to be a better person and ask for Your forgiveness for everything I’ve done. I dont know how much longer I can go on like this,

I cant pushing You away.

I need You in my life and not just need You but want You in my life.

Please help me to pass through these upcoming days.

God,I dont want to battle anymore.

I’m mentality tired!

I just want to get along without the stress and worry.

I want to be with the people I love on her birthday,

God, I need you all the time.

I need your guidance, I need your mercy.

Bless the person I love and protect them from evil.

If this is one of Your plans for me.

Help me to be a little bit stronger to pass through this quickly

I hope everything will be fine by tomorrow.

God,I dont even know what to say to you anymore, it is like I am blank, I just dont know what to say.

Feels like I have no motivation, no will, no feelings except sadness and helplessness

God,You know everything, You know what I need and what is best for me so please do Your will in my life.I ask this in Jesus name.

Amen

Dudi Dudi..please go away :(

Nah..Im tired of reading Kitchen Management 1 notes
I don't feel like want to read it at all and those tips given by Mr.Ho gonna be nothing to me right now :(
seems like everything been made from pieces of shyt!
I need a break,I need cigarettes,I want to lay down on my bed..

seems like everything went wrong.....

I don't know... :(
I been having bad luck lately and that's why I need a lucky charm.

Wait wait..Dudi..she was my lucky charm :)

Hold on.. I think I know what's the problem that I'm having right now..

I MISS MY DUDI...!!!

Yes!!I do miss her now..so badly!and I hate this!
because. . .
I just can't concentrate on my revision

Dudi Dudi go away.. :P


Well..Thinking back..no matter how many hours we've spent together.
I still missing her >.<
and I feel like wanna pinch her cheeks right now! haha..
I need to talk to her..missing to hear her voice,her laughs..everything!!
If i could hear her voice for awhile right now it would be a cure for me!!

Wish Dudi were here so I can tell her how pretty she would be in the future ngahaha.. O.O'

Dudi Dudi please go away...Qiun Qiun want to continue study..can?


Oh yea!..I just found out full term of ILY =.=' ( lambat pick-up )

IMU+ILY too Dudi =D

I bet you will say Noob Dudi after reading this..
at least you smile when saying it =)

Dudi Dudi Please go away..

I like to visualize...so?

There's nothing wrong if you like to dream ok? Yes everyone did and proudly saying I am a natural born dreamer. .and so are you :) haha..

I like to dream and in the dreams, I can come out with many good things in life. With the person I love and have the money to live comfortably. With visualization, you can create whatever you want, provided you're able to settle on one thing and follow known processes through to their successful completion. You can use creative visualization to get a new job, find a new relationship, improve your self confidence.

In fact there's nothing you cannot be, have, or do by using creative visualization effectively and consistently. >.<

Practise creative visualization as much as you can. This is a part of your future plannings as what my Mom told me. It may bring you great change in life!

*** At least it could makes you feel better and forget your problems ^-^v *

MUSICK or MUSIC :)

One of the things in life i like best is music.
Eventho Im didn't know much about music theories or instruments, yet i feel that music is a fundamental part of humans >.<
I listen to all sorts of music.Since young, I have wide taste of music, from the 60's Heavy Metal band,Fat Domino,Jimmy Hendrix Jazz and Fushion from underground musicians. Yes I listen to classics too :)

That was younger years. ^-^v

However, I feel the popular music nowadays is getting worse..Since some singers started to sing using the monotone and it sounded like Robotic Era Songs..which this will makes untalented singer still could sing also and celebrates Grammy.
And guess what,mostly this kind of music will be forgotten in a couple months and people will move to another ROBOT singer..I am kinda disappointed :(
still have to deal with it..we just follow the flow right?

I have listened to a lot of music lately, not all of it within the comfort genre my ears are used to.

Good music I find is those which has emotion,and a soul. You listen to music that makes you laugh, cry, or just lift up your happy mood and you connect to it. It's like the music reaches inside you and touches your heart.

Cigarettes to be sold only in packs of 20's and above. The reason stated is Stupid. >.<

I question sometimes how someone can make a public statement and try to make themselves sound intelligent and miserably fail time and time again.

The subject matter here is in selling cigarettes in no less than packs of 20s.The stupid reason is so that it would be harder for minors to buy them.

Duuuh!

In case they forget... ..many shops out there selling cigarettes in loose sticks. So tell me would the strategy work entirely?efficiently?? Or there is by divine intervention that buy selling in larger packs these kids will give up?

the answer is No.they can start sharing money to buy a box right?

The form of packaging would not give an impact that is sought after.It is the sellers that needs to be monitored and legal action taken if they sell to minors.This could be the case of following just because other countries are doing it as well.

Follow the herd~ yess follow the herd!!!!

p/s: zZz

AH BOY DOING MATHS

Ah Boy was doing his maths homework.

He said to himself, “Two plus five, the son of a bitch is seven.”

“Three plus six, the son of a bitch is nine…”

His mother, Ah Lian heard what he was saying and gasped, “Boy, what are you doing?”

Ah Boy answered, “I’m doing my maths homework, Mom.”

“And this is how your teacher taught you to do it?” the mother asked.

“Yes,” Ah Boy answered.

Infuriated, Ah Lian go to school and asked the teacher the next day, “What are you teaching my son in maths?”

The teacher replied, “Right now, we are learning addition.”

Ah Lian asked, “And are you teaching them to say two plus two, the son of a bitch is four?”

After the teacher stopped laughing, she answered, “What I taught them was, two plus two, THE SUM OF WHICH, is four.”

Dudi too

Dudi :D

15 random things of you that makes me smile...

1. Soulja boy crank that dance hohoho..

2. Complaining..

3. Unexpected letters in your text msgs

4. Mooning you hahaha..

5. You just skipped the topic because couldn’t express some words in malay.

6. Cheating in playing pool/snooker.

7. ”Hello Dudi :D ..Where are you?”

8. You making ridiculous faces

9. Trying to figure out what are you trying to say.

10.When you replied me “ faham bah aiyerr!!” XD

11. I thought using your toe?

12. Realized that i’m not in this Weird Syndrome alone.

13. Unexpected questions from you..

14. Dudi talking to Dudi.. =.=’

15. Dudi misses Dudi

Urban Language

An informal language made up of current phrases or words that are used in place of standard terms for added emphasis, humor or other effects.

"the lingo used by peeps to talk about mad shiz and holla at their homies." can you figure out what's the meaning of this sentence? hahaha...

Well,for me it's quite fun to learn and discover the meanings of urban words because I love rap music and sometimes,I found a lyric that using a certain urban words that I have no idea what it is and I have to find the meanings of it..and I think it's similar like we learning English.Whereby,We have to find out the meaning or definition of the word that we doesn't know in the Dictionary.

Learning Proper English and Urban language at the same time is fun..The more we read and the more new infomations we will get =)
and don't get me wrong because Im doing this just for fun and it's usefull for me to understand the meaning of the lyrics.

I know why many people doesn't like rap music because of the rappers talking too fast over the beat and the listener couldn't understand it plus the words used in the lyrics is quite hard to be understood..So they perfer a slower beat. (English songs is better)

Just forget about Indonesian Pop band.it's Boring.
p/s: Booo!!

“has anyone ever noticed that studying is student and dying put together?
-hahaha... I love this,Honestly saying i never noticed this fact....-

HATE HATE HATE!! zzz..

you can hate a person just by looking at her/him: the hair, the smile, the look, the clothes.Anything can trigger negative feelings.u just have to go with that flow and any proof that person is not horrible will have no influence on you.I don’t know if we could say a good thing about every person we’ve met so far,maybe they haven’t impressed us in a positive way,but we can most certainly bitch about all of them.still there must have been something to annoy us at one point.It’s only human!

for every nice gesture and person who smiled thanks to you, there is an unhappy person,someone who feels neglected or discriminated against.It’s human to be annoyed, but above that, I think it’s human to be hatable (being available for hate).We are hatable with every gesture, every choice we make and tear we drop. Because all these are movements on a map filled with people and when we go one way we get closer to some and estrange from others. We are, in essence, controversial. =x

Some are more controversial than others, true...It depends on how far we move from the center of the map or,in other words,how extremist we are.And how much we show of our personality we show to others. But still, we are always lovable to some and hatable to others.

That’s the breakthrough.We’re both good and evil, pleasant and repulsive, smart and stupid. It only depends on where we’re standing when we’re judging.There is no black and white...Lazy Malay Or Chinese Babi and that’s why the big picture is important:we need to see the balance between the smiles and the tears someone provoke on.And the reasons.the intentions,the more information we have,the better we see the tone of gray.

Anyway,Like it or not we are hatable.

That’s our most human trait. Every person stands for the things another one hates. That’s life...That's it and good night =)